I kinda suck at this - catch up time

So... I really am bad at posting, so maybe I can try this, and eventually I will get better at it.



That just means that this one is going to be extremely long, because a lot has happened in the last few weeks that has sent my life on a tail spin.



OK, let's see. Where to start...



So, I was dating this woman for 2 years and 10 months. She lived with me for 2 years and 7 months. At first it was great. Things were a little on edge at times, due to my job and me being gone a lot, but things were good.



Then I deployed. I went on a ship to the middle east and was gone for 7 months. That was hard on the both of us. But we made it through. At least I thought so. We went on and had a little bit of wonderful time, we went to Disney World, to New York City, and was having what I thought was a great time, with it all leading up to the point that I wanted, which was to get married and start a family. Then things started to change.



We weren't intimate anymore, there was a growing tension between us, and i thought that eventually it would get better. I was so blind to the problems that i tried to force the future. I was ready, and going to do it. I had a ring, i had a plan, and I had the approval of her friends and family. The night before we got into a big fight over us, and she told me not to propose. So i didn't. And that marked the beginning of the end...

We gad a good move out here. We had some fun, visited some cool places, and saw some cool things. But something changed when we got to Monterey. Everything was fake. I started becoming unhappy. I was unhappy because money was tight, and she didn't want to do anything to help out. Get married? Nope. Get a job? Nope. Complain about how life is not how she wanted and then do nothing about it? Yes. Trying to enjoy life at all? No. It came to a breaking point. I was sooooo unhappy, and I had enough. So I broke up with her.

Since then I have had ups and downs. I got promoted. Yay! I bought some new toys in order to splurge on myself. I threw myself a party. I made some awesome new friends. All yay. But as it is with most break-ups a void is created. That void is where all the love used to be, all the fun, and all that I came to depend on her for. So, I tried to fill that void with happy people, who are full of life, and add a positive energy to my life. Well, in the "give a mouse a cookie" sense, I over did it. So prolly the biggest downfall in my life has been the massive tension that i created between me and some great people, who hopefully will be able to deal with me in the future and continue to call me their friend.

Well, that is it. That is about as much that has happened in the past bit. Hopefully I will get better at posting and you will see more updates.

Peace out.